I'm Back

hoowdy humans!
im back with a new blog name. but still the old me tho dont worry!
so yeah basically this blog with just my daily post and my artworks. not like a fully art blog no more. since i rarely do arts now days (yesh it's sad i do aware of that he)

as i post this today will be the last day im spending my so called holiday in Depok he. yesh i'll be travelling to Jogja tomorrow. so stoked! i'll be travelling with my friends tho, so gonna post what i do the most there he. mostly just some bunch of foods and things i do daily. i'm going to stay for 2 weeks i guess i mean i'll be leaving on 27 and be back on 5 i guess? well if my mom already booked my flight. i mean yesh this is the unplanned trip. i randomly just wanna go there and do stuffs. cause daaaang gurl im super bored with all the things here in jakarta.

so i've been on my smtr break for 2 months now and it's going to end soon (thank god) but i need to do one last thing before finally getting back to my daily routine. as you all dont know, during non-holiday period i spend my time mostly at campus and home doing worksheets i rarely hang out cause im too tired to do so or cause i just got too much work to do. but mostly because im too tired of campus shit. so during the holidays i just spend most of my time outside the house. mostly having fun with my friends. cruising Jakarta night roads, musics, night life. just having fun but still responsibly. i know my mom doesnt know much about it but im doing it responsibly and i know my limits.

mostly i just spend my day sleeping then went out on evenings until night. just hanging out chillin with my friends. i mean mostly i felt negativity at home so i need to be positive outside the house.
that's pretty much my activity for the past view days. nothing special. nothin new.

well this holiday is like one of the weirdest i ever experienced i suppose? i mean, it's like i spend mostly my day hanging out with my friends instead of my own family (well they dont mind anyway, or they dont have plans anyway so yeah) and this holiday is where i knew who'll be my friends later on during the 3rd smtr. i kinda jerk off one of my closest one. ha. well im a jerk anyway, and my high school close friends well they turn out to be just idk same as everybody else? or cause people change?

but then one night i decided to be back as a cold person, where i wont feel hurt and such. jerking off people, not having close friends. treated everyone the same. just me and my world and myself to survive the dang jungle of campus and the humans of jakarta.

but hey, that's what i learn in life either you'll be eaten or you eat people. i guess? i mean i dont think people would truly be nice to you and acted like yes you guys are friends and that's it. ha. people now days being nice to you just to able to use you. your friends arent your friends when they are not there when you're doing even when they're there somehow your heart said she/he is not good for you. idkw tho ha.

anyways that's all im going to say, im back. more ranting, some arts, daily post too i guess. just prepare :)

here are some picts from the things i did this holiday in one collage.

that's all for today!
have an owlsome week peeps!

cheers,

Dosky ↀᴥↀ

High School Drama

people said high school is the funnest part of your life. well it's a lie. my high school experience is not that much of a "good" story. i went into a place where i dont fit in. i tried. but they're being a such dickheads.

the story goes with the 'wrong' move i made. by dating the most hated person in the school. it was just a bad start. people hated me, even treated me like im nothing. they even tend to make me cry. they even said they wont stop until i cry. and i did. well good for you guys. you made me cry. aaaaand you deserved an applause. standing ovation even. it was a bit hell during the 10th grade how i got a pretty nasty gossip. how i 'fckd' my boyfriend in the library. and how i did it also in the car. which it doesnt make any sense. cause im in "jemputan" or school bus? how could i even possibly done it? and in the library? LIKE HAVE YOU SEEN AND TRY TO GO INSIDE MADANIA'S LIBRARY? no? try it and now tell me HOW could i've done it? i mean? come on! if you guys want to make a 'hot' gossip about me and my boyfriend make something reasonable, and even POSSIBLE to do.

11th grade was okay, it was just the perfect time of the year. i got great class mate, it was fun. everyone was being nice. i broke up with my boyfriend, i got productive and i made this blog. i love living in the internet cause no one. NO ONE. could judge me, could give me the 'fuck off' face or attitude cause this blog belongs to me and myself. and during this year nothing much happened. everything goes well. but still i hate everyone here. since nobody likes me. some of them were just being fake. i dont even like waking up and going to school.

12th grade was the shittiest. why? i got into a new class where every nice single person in my 11th grade became a dick. everyone began to gave me the shitty look. it wasnt nice feeling knowing you coming into an unwelcome class mates. people talks about me worser than during the 10th grade people laugh on me for no reason. called me a bitch, slut or whatsoever. it hurts until now. but i kept it to myself i tried to ask my mom to move out but she didnt get the message maybe when she got the time to read this post well mom, this is why i want to go to homeschool and i HATE my school so much. i even stop being productive since i didnt get any good mood during this year.

the rumour started because my friend said i called my other friend which the QUEEN of the school ugly which is not right. let me clarify this. my JHS friend  check on my FB and check on some of my HS friends. and she said one of the looked familiar well she does cause she's a go girl model. and she said her in person was not as pretty as her in the magazine. so that was the one i told HS friend but ya know what? everyone said i told them she's ugly. well i didnt comment a thing it was my friend. and tbh she said she's not as pretty as those photographs not ugly. DIVINE THE DIFFERENCE YOU MADANIAS. it got me into a pretty bad place where the hate got bigger. even my (should i say only friends?) got the impact also how people just being super mean toward us and called us names.

it was not a pleasant experience. i love how it ends sooner. i dont know what is wrong with me cause tbh if im the person they told i was, i mean. come on. i got more friends outside school than they ever will. even during JHS i got more friends. people loved me. i always got the attention. but not during high school. idk what is wrong with them maybe because every single person there were mostly been together since elementary so im an outsider. so im weird and shit. idk. even now some of them were in UI and most of them didnt get that much friend. even they still hang out with their old hs friends during weekends, i mean. are you being cereal? find you friends lah!

but thanks to those dickheads i found real friends but mostly they came from different JHS so they had a normal mindset not that madanian stupid narrow arrogant mindset. sigh. yeah they are. cause mostly came from wealthy family, so yeah. they just being spoiled, and just had an arrogant soul in them. but if i played save from the beginning i might not found my real friends. and i might not be myself. and thanks to them i became a better person myself.

lol i cried while writing this post cause those painful memories haha oh well :D

that's all people sorry for the rant!
have an owlsome week!

cheers,

dosky ↀᴥↀ

Daily Post: Two Stories

howdy humans!
how's it going? another post of daily random things and thoughts i guess, so few days back i went to bogor just to meet up with my highschool fellas. not all of them tho just some of my bogor friends. it was just great we talked about our stupid old days, the high school dramas, how we got into the stupidest drama of all how we're stupid enough to care, our high school lovers how we cant live without them but look at us now! we're laughing how stupid we were back then.

it was nice catching up with everyone, well not all of them. we went to two stories in bogor. it's like a new coffee shop in bogor and it was just cute and we just laugh a lot there. ordered  some tea and just having a chill after rain evening. and my mom found out i've been smoking cause she read my previous post. and i was like well she's a smoker too, like i live in a smoker family so why did it made me a bad one? i mean, im not a heavy smoker. i dont smoke everyday. im a social smoker which means i smoke when im outside with my people. but when im home alone or driving alone or even home alone. i dont really had the feeling to do so. well sometimes but not that often. only during campus days. and sometimes weekend.

anyways, then we set off to our fav place to eat! tampomas!! yesh we loveee to eat indomie with egg and cheese there! just perfect! we even went to our high school, madania. yesh at night. it was creepy one of my friend wont stop being such a chicken and screamed a lot too. it was just funny.

the night ended with me staying at my friend's house. and back to my house the next day. it was friday noon so the road was just perfect to go wild. it was a bit rainy too, i went 100-150 speed. and there were like 3 cars chasing each other and i went followed them it was like 4 cars going wild on the highway. it was a fun way to start the day.

but i ended up eating A LOT the whole day since me and my friend Indira hadnt eat well weeks before (too much holiday syndrome). and yeah we just kept on talking about why people hated me during high school. how everyone treated me like im a nobody. but i'll make it into another post cause it was just a long post of explanation!

anyways that's all! have an owlsome week everyone!

cheers,

dosky ↀᴥↀ

Daily Post: 2 Girls 1 Cup

howdy humans!
how's it goin'? just another update post about my day, yeah the title of it was a bit weird tho and if some of you might know 2 girls thing well no this is not it.
starting this year im going to post at least once a week in this blog about random stuff maybe artwork and such :D

so what is it about this post, since i spend mostly playing my PS3 or dotA2 this week, yesterday i finally went out with my highschool friend. nope we didnt go to the same school yet we hung out together pretty often tho. and now she's taking HI UGM and me UI so we pretty far apart now //sobs// but hey weekend is still here and we got plenty of holidays (since we're both in college now and our number of holiday is kinda ridiculous) so we met during those times.

we went to GI yesterday just for lunch and she went shopping since she's going to thailand with her HI friends and she needs clothes. and we did eat at Carl.s jr and i ordered their famous burger and it was HELL! i mean it was good yet it was just too big and my tummy just went crazy i mean you know how it feels like right? when you ate too much yet it was a guilty pleasure tho :')

anyways we head off to grab a cup of coffee and we need to smoke a bit. oh one thing tho being a girl and smoker is not a bad thing. i mean we smoked but doesnt mean we're bad. and f you for thinking girls who smoke are bad and they're wasting life or just being bad. cause tbh you guys just need to be in our shoes, you need to feel what we feel how and reasons why we did it. so yeah. to people who judge other for being smokers or drinkers just shut the hell up and listen to their stories. you being a goody toe shoes doesnt makes you a better person then us. and just please/ you dont know us. so cut the BS talk :)

anyways, next to us was an older guy let say about 30ish age? it kept on looking at us. after we drank our coffee we went to the toilet to take a piss, guess what? that old guy followed us and ask for my friend's number. it was a bit creepy tho then we moving on to shopping then that guy texted my friend even lined her. it was just ew idk. he was a bit latino i guess idk it was just idk hahaha

then we went home. this is the shitty part of the day cause we just bump into TRAFFIC EVERYWHERE we spend like 3 hours in the road just to get home and just a bit insane tho we set off at 6 and arrived home at 9 nearly 10. like. woah jakarta woah.

so that's all tho haha a bit random yet it was well spend tho!

have an owlsome week ahead peeps!

cheers,

doskyↀᴥↀ

New Chapter of 2015

HOWWWDYY HUMANS! HOW'S IT GOING!
it's been quite awhile since i really post my drawings or DYI things ey? new year new ideas, i promise i'll post more yet i dont think i'll post drawings and such but more to projects such as exhibition, photoshoot and such so yeah just wait for it!

anyways!
lemme just write a pleasant goodbye letter to 2014.

dear 2014, thank you for everything, the new circle of people the new routine, to the every single thing and days during your year. it was a good yet sad year for me.

start off with my last stage of my school age, i've finally not wearing any uniforms and have to go to school every morning learning things i dont like, and do things i must do and obey such useless rules for me and my life and my mind. IM FINALLY OUT FROM THE HIGHSCHOOL DRAMA AND PEOPLE WHICH IM SO GLAD I DID!
yet i saying goodbye to some of my high school friends wasnt that easy i used to have my unicorns fellas which to be honest it's my comfort zone to be around every single day now i have to face people i dont really consider as friends :)
it was okay at first tho but again, i dont really think i'd find people like them. my college fellas was okay yet they're not unicorns (i consider people my type and i like being around with are unicorns)

now im living in a new life, college. days went okay. i felt fine at first although i dont really like the japanese studies itself cause DUDE JAPUN IS JUST UGH// but hey it was just a really clumsy decision and a really lucky situation of mine. but yet again i might still considering not going to my current uni :P

the people? fine but mostly are people who were "kaget gaul" or i should say people who're finally tasting the real life? they finally got to taste the drugs, alcohols, and clubs. im so over that. i mean i've been there done that that's why i dont really prefer doing it now days/ even my friends who've been experienced the same stage as mine, they just so over it now. i mean most of us were just need to take a break from those stuff. but yet some of people around me just got to chance to taste it now, and yes it was kinda sad yet bad decision. cause why? uni life is when you gotta be wise with you decisions, cause yes we're still young and reckless yet you need to know college is not easy and it's just not the right time got caught up with those stuffs. just. you could do it but not that much. get it? small mount will do just fine, but too much just not going to be good for anyone.

enough with those stuff. and im hoping for a bright 2015. at least more projects, works, and just more useful experience. 2014 thought me a lot in a bad way. but thanks to him i knew more about life in a good way while doing bad things.

and im hoping for the best for all of you who're reading this, have a pleasant, bless and an owlsome year ahead. i'll pray for your health and wish of luck for the 2015 ride. hold on tight cause you never know what god had planned for you this year ;)

and thank you for everyone who thought me a lot, my highschool teachers (and i miss you guys so much dosen doesnt thought me much like you guys and im praying everyday for you to replace them in class), to my close friends during highschool (thank you for sticking with me for everything, especially felide and ijuz and ipeh for being a wonderful friends *kisseshuggies*), to my nongkrong friends (im going to miss you since mostly of you guys are not here anymore in jakarta, pim needs you guys huft i need you guys when im bored and such).

thank you for every owlsome events, albums, songs this year. i mean come one 2014? taylor swift, hatsune miku, DWP14, and them art events!! it was such a pain in my wallet yet i manage to see some of them (sorry ts and miku if only IF ONLY i use my money wisely)

and again THANK YOU 2014 FOR THE WONDERFUL YEAR! IF ONLY I COULD ASK FOR MORE, I WOULD. I LOVE YOU MWAH :** ({})

cheers,

Dosky