howdy peeps!
i know i havent post much lately i even rarely posted my artworks //iknowimsorry// i havent got the will to do blogging again somehow //myappologies//
anyways, im finally a college student! although it excites me a bit yet i got so many things in mind. i mean this college life thing is great yet i dont really seem to enjoy my own major somehow. btw im a University of Indonesia student and taking japanese major. yeah i know it's a bit weird because if i do recall i somehow said im going to binus and such yet i ended up being here in UI instead. l
ong story, but idkw i got into this uni. it was luck perhaps. and my family do resist me to take the offer which breaks my heart a bit, that's why i dont really do my uni stuff fully with heart yet. not just yet. im not good with language i never am.but hey i asked my mom to do the SIMAK thing again next year yet im not sure i will held much luck like i was before. but to be honest the atmosphere in FIB (Fakultas Ilmu Budaya [fyi]) was just perfect for me. the events, people, also the place itself. but to be honest i dont really fit with my own major. studying language was my least thing to do, i like to talk. yet in this major it's not about talking it's about how well you study the language and culture. and sad to say only some of the "smart" yet "oddity" peeps are the one who'd survive them all.
not going to say that those people are people i dislike or whatsoever yet they are just my least favorite people. i hang out mostly with people outside my major well some of them are from same major yet not many of them tho. but i like being in FIB not in my major.
but hey life must go on. i might transfer major or take the test again and change my faculty or idk what im going to do with my life. my only friend named Laura. how does it feels like being in a place you dont fit in and you dont like being in. i've been there during my shs. i dont want it anymore. i need somewhere i belong, with people i do wanna be with.
enough with the bragging, i just wanna feel like i belong in it. i dont even know what am i doing lately. i need sometime alone to think about it. but somehow im not sure with myself. what should i do? should i give it all up or keep moving forward?
haha that's all peeps :'D
cheers,
dosky
