Society

this is not a post about my artwork, videos or even photos. it's about some rant post, about how mean the society is. here in my own hometown country Indonesia. Why Indonesia you may ask, cause i cant find it in another country i guess, maybe this is all just me.

well once was i used to be a new kid in this country, the only thing i knew is speaking in bahasa. that's all, i cant spell ABC in bahasa, even knew numbers in bahasa. yeah you may thought "ohwaw she's such an idiot" well whatever, cause you know what? before i moved here i used to live in Australia where they dont 'FORCE' young age kid to STUDY and DO HOMEWORKS, we did learn how to share our things, and BE FRIENDLY to other kids.

here in Indonesia? it was a culture shock where the bathroom wasnt THAT clean, and how we MUST do homeworks i mean i was 5! all I know is fairytale and playing princess and being a hero. so it effected me a lot, cause you know what? people were being mean to me. they bullied me, yeah i was bullied when i was 5 cause i was different from everyone.

it wasnt a good memories, how they pitched me. not only 1 person but a group of girls did that, and when i cried they laugh about it, as if im just being a cry baby. i wasnt enjoying school at all, not a single bit. then it didnt stop there. during my 1st grade i cant read bahasa so i did take lesson to read while my friends could read perfectly. another "ohwaw she's such an idiot" label again. no i wasnt an idiot that time, it's just i could do what this country wants.

but it kept continuing till my 2nd grade, i was struggling with the school curriculums. NO it wasnt THAT easy when you cant read well and know some alphabets. and how i got frustrated with the english here! i mean they cant even spell the alphabets well and when i try to tell my teacher her mistakes she just being "oh im a teacher and you're a kid so shut it and just deal with it" kinda situation.

then i tried my best to study and it changed during my 3rd grade, i could easily follow the lessons and do well in school. finally good grades, and i ended up being a teacher's pet. every teacher kinda look up for me (FINALLY) yet it gave me a bad influence cause finally i got the power over everyone, so yeah i bullied people. i made them cried, and yeah i was mean that year. it's like im finally got my power after years of being a completely someone who's been treated bad and being that "idiot" girl.

it continues, during my 5th grade i transfered school. i was like "oh a fresh new start" yet i was wrong, i got close with the popular people which made me well known for a new kid. and yeah another bad influenced in life, i did bad things in school. which made me not a person i was, i used to be the shy person then they changed me into this beast who loves to do bad things and bullied weak people. i never knew the pleasure of taking control was taking over me.

and you think my life stops there? noppeee, during my junior high years it gone worst. before i entered the school, i was a friend of a kid of the school owner so yet again well known as a new student. teacher know my name, and yes another years of bullying and doing bad things. yep i turned out as a person i hate right now. i was mean and cruel just like those people who bullied me. i thought doing that would make people finally realize that my position once was is not a good place to be. but i was wrong, bullying never been a good thing.

but it stops during my high school year, but just like i said, the society is a mean thing. it's not just about the bullying but also about rumor. bad ones, good ones. none of them were right, that's why i hate rumor. and dont believe in it unless i seen them by myself.

i didnt get bullied or bullying others yet, there's this guy i dated who's not really a person who'd filled with good things when you heard about him through other's mouth. i mean he's filled with bad rumor, not only about him but also girls that he dated, includes me. i got some bad rumor about me and him. it wasnt true, like why would people do that, that is just mean.

oh maybe some of you may think "ha! she made it up" nope this is my life that i wrote here.

and i thought i was the only one? nope my little brother, he got bullied. and he's the type of kid who would keep things to himself, which brings him to frustration. he'd puke every morning cause he's so nervous to go to school and got bullied, not just that he made up excuses to skip school yet refuses to go to doctor to check it up.

and also my boyfriend's little brother got the same thing, every time i met him at school he'd always be alone.

well people think we're weird, and dont fit in to you society, well you guys were wrong. we sometimes struggling with things that you may not know, or we're just trying to fit in yet you wont let us. you know society ruins people's thoughts and ways or seeing others. some ruins people's personality, some made the "anti-social" cause they prefer not to be mocked or to be laughed at.

when you think of "he/she is weird, what's wrong with them" they're not weird they're just dont know how to be what the society wants, you guys wanted too much from someone. the meaner they'd be the well known they'd be. right? you love those mean people and follow them and be a part of them. and mocked those 'weird' people :)

im not going to say "stop bullying" or anything, well if you're never been in that position well lucky you, you have a great life. all i wanna say is this is reality this is life, we cant just told people to stop all we could do is to cheer them i guess idk ha! im not good at giving advice or  anything

that's all i wanna say, i wrote this cause im sick of seeing people got bullied and such. and i wont let this happens to my friend, children in the future on even my grandchildren one day. cause i wont let them feel those bad times like how i did in life :)

i talked to much am i? okay then! bubye have an owlsome week people! GBU :D

cheers,
Dosky