hey humans, how's your summer?
well it's not that summery here, since it starts to rain almost everyday and it supposed to be sunny yet... it doesnt. oh well, you can always blame the global warming for the messed up weathers.
but still i've spend my holidays mostly at beaches, haha :P
yeap, i went to Pangandaran and Anyer. it was an owlsome trip! since i've learn how to surf and did some pretty cool beach activities. it was really fun.
and yeah my apology for not giving you guys any artworks post since i dont do much art lately, caught up with school stuff and some problems.
i know you might think "ugh i want to see more drawings, instead your thoughts and shitty post" well sorry but im just not in a good situation at the moment.
well since my mom canceled me going to US for student exchange thingy, and promised me to transfer me to a Home Schooling, and do more artsy activity since im wanting to enter an Art college. but again i got another disappointment where she said no (again) it breaks my heart, where she promised me.
it doesnt stopped there, where i tried to explained to her and such yet she just kept on saying no. I really need some time to approven my skills since im aware of my sucky drawing skill.
she said no. no. no.
promises is a swear that people SHOULD freakin keep it.
but this is what i get in life; promise is a sentence filled with swears and bullshit, and it's like a dream you know it's there but you know it's not going to happen.
sorry, but not only my mother, but my father did the same. how he promised me to come on my birthday which he never did, and it's been awhile since i last saw him. and also my previous boyfriend. yeah people lied, sometimes i dont know who to trust anymore. but i got some friends that is worth the trust yet still that fear is still there.
anyways, sorry for this crappy post. i promised you tomorrow i'll do something for a better post.
im really sorrrrrryyyyyyyyy like deeply sorrry.
im sorry if im being annoying or idk a bad person on twitter.
i love you guys i really do :"D
cheers,
Dosky
Monday, July 15, 2013
Sunday, June 23, 2013
To Someone Out There
dear someone,
my relationship was beautiful until his small mind of "i think i love her" showed up.
yes he's a type of guy who'd say "i love her so much i wanna marry her" then suddenly his fucked up mind changed into "no i cant forget her and i wanna marry that girl instead" kind of person.
well, in my a year and a half relationship was a bumpy ride. we've been through UPs and DOWNs. yet, this is something i clearly cant stand having. knowing he lied to me for days, and knowing that he forgotten all of our memories as if it's something we did yesterday and it was really a shock discovery that he's been keeping it for days. and i found the evidenced of him keeping it. even some words i cant even describe how crumbled i am right now.
on his little blog, he wrote stuff that's not right and it's such a cliche thing for him to do. well no i didnt dump him. no, he did it. even for days we havent talk much and he suddenly said he needs sometime alone. i mean i know he was caught up in SEA Major practice thing and such, but his attitude really pissed me. we've been fighting a lot lately by saying a lot it's A LOT. like tons of fighting for the last few days. sometimes i thought he was trying to find an excuse to have a break up. sometimes it's something that's is not worth to be argued.
even his friends wasnt surprised by his behaviour, they said it's just his typical thing of the month. where he mind was fucked up and he suddenly fell in love with another person INSTANTLY!
yes he clearly doesnt understand the word of "love" and "i love you" were supposed to be told to one person only and you said it with your feelings and you meant it. it was such a disappointment knowing he did this. he promised.
even he and that girl were acting like lovers, how that girl loves anime and play games and did some cosplay, while me and my small bubble of photography, drawing, music, games, and anime stuff. yeah people said we're the same type, welp NO. not because i dont want to be compared by a girl like that, but because we're not. she may loves anime and japanese stuff like me but the way she loves stuff is different than me. i dont like being compared to any human, not a single bit.
haha i know you may thing im sobbing right now, crying like a baby to the thing i just experienced. well no, things got fucked up for my relationship but on the other hand, my score got better, i got more time to hang out with my friends, even more family time. cause in my relationship time, he was a type of person who wouldnt let me do stuff and prefer to be with him instead. even some period of times he got upset when i got a job or entering exhibition or even when i want to hang out with my friends.
this is me and my post clearing my name, cause i know he would tell lies to people saying im a bitch or i dump him or even im the one who's responsible for this messed we're in.
and for KIKI, goodluck with ELSA girl or SASHKIRK or whatsoever her name is.
i hope you'll be a cute couple, and have babies of dummies idc.
oh yeah note to you my boy, you cant always get what you want when you threw away what you need. and thank you for showing me you're still the jerk asshole i knew. anywaaays, when things got shit up i wont be there for you anymore, i wont be the person of "oh yeah you've apologised it's fine" nope this time im really giving you up and this time no more nice aiichoo aii or whatever those stupid name you called me. she's gone. im gone, you've lost me for real, and i'll be a different person for now on.
goodbye ki, goodluck and thank you.
P.S: even your friends hate ya, they're on my side now ;)
Songs Played;
ソラニン - Asian Kung-fu Generation
*click the song to listen
my relationship was beautiful until his small mind of "i think i love her" showed up.
yes he's a type of guy who'd say "i love her so much i wanna marry her" then suddenly his fucked up mind changed into "no i cant forget her and i wanna marry that girl instead" kind of person.
well, in my a year and a half relationship was a bumpy ride. we've been through UPs and DOWNs. yet, this is something i clearly cant stand having. knowing he lied to me for days, and knowing that he forgotten all of our memories as if it's something we did yesterday and it was really a shock discovery that he's been keeping it for days. and i found the evidenced of him keeping it. even some words i cant even describe how crumbled i am right now.
on his little blog, he wrote stuff that's not right and it's such a cliche thing for him to do. well no i didnt dump him. no, he did it. even for days we havent talk much and he suddenly said he needs sometime alone. i mean i know he was caught up in SEA Major practice thing and such, but his attitude really pissed me. we've been fighting a lot lately by saying a lot it's A LOT. like tons of fighting for the last few days. sometimes i thought he was trying to find an excuse to have a break up. sometimes it's something that's is not worth to be argued.
even his friends wasnt surprised by his behaviour, they said it's just his typical thing of the month. where he mind was fucked up and he suddenly fell in love with another person INSTANTLY!
yes he clearly doesnt understand the word of "love" and "i love you" were supposed to be told to one person only and you said it with your feelings and you meant it. it was such a disappointment knowing he did this. he promised.
even he and that girl were acting like lovers, how that girl loves anime and play games and did some cosplay, while me and my small bubble of photography, drawing, music, games, and anime stuff. yeah people said we're the same type, welp NO. not because i dont want to be compared by a girl like that, but because we're not. she may loves anime and japanese stuff like me but the way she loves stuff is different than me. i dont like being compared to any human, not a single bit.
haha i know you may thing im sobbing right now, crying like a baby to the thing i just experienced. well no, things got fucked up for my relationship but on the other hand, my score got better, i got more time to hang out with my friends, even more family time. cause in my relationship time, he was a type of person who wouldnt let me do stuff and prefer to be with him instead. even some period of times he got upset when i got a job or entering exhibition or even when i want to hang out with my friends.
this is me and my post clearing my name, cause i know he would tell lies to people saying im a bitch or i dump him or even im the one who's responsible for this messed we're in.
and for KIKI, goodluck with ELSA girl or SASHKIRK or whatsoever her name is.
i hope you'll be a cute couple, and have babies of dummies idc.
oh yeah note to you my boy, you cant always get what you want when you threw away what you need. and thank you for showing me you're still the jerk asshole i knew. anywaaays, when things got shit up i wont be there for you anymore, i wont be the person of "oh yeah you've apologised it's fine" nope this time im really giving you up and this time no more nice aiichoo aii or whatever those stupid name you called me. she's gone. im gone, you've lost me for real, and i'll be a different person for now on.
goodbye ki, goodluck and thank you.
P.S: even your friends hate ya, they're on my side now ;)
Songs Played;
ソラニン - Asian Kung-fu Generation
*click the song to listen
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